Thoughts for the day: Promotion, Bonus, Increment

The big veil has been removed today! Finally after a month of guessing and asking about, the letter carrying the news arrived!

What is this?

So, management decided to be more transparent in terms of remuneration, and thus we each get a customised letter detailing our Bonus & Increment. And for those like me, one of those promoted, will get an extra letter detailing the various terms of our employment contract that had been "updated".

Rating-wise, I've been informed previously. I am satisifed with one, and a bit disappointed with the other. I really wonder what brought it down by a notch? Why not A? Why B+? Is my potential not good enough?

I still don't have the answer...

For today, the monetary terms come into picture.

I gotta say that I am not as happy as I thought I should be... looking at the actual monetary terms.

I believe the year before was better, in terms of quantum for each rating. I may be ambitious, but I think I deserve what I ought to expect, at least for this time round.

Looking it at isolation, I have to say that both my Bonus and my new Pay seems decent. But I'll admit that I can't just stop at that. It could have been better... It should have been better. My department did quite well for the year, but should we be penalised because other departments have been doing not as good (although under the same umbrella)?

Be contented...... Or try to be~

Well, at least I got my promotion at the desired timing =)
Now to live up the title and to pick up a few more skills along the way!

---- Quote Princess "Now all you need is a partner"

Don't want to think about it anymore... Need to find back my faith in love. Haha~!

Thoughts for the day: The Passing

Tuesday, 16 July 2013, I received a call close to lunch time (12pm).

I was told that her condition is not looking good.. and whether I can leave work anytime when needed. Of course I can...

Seconds after I hung up, a whatsapp message popped on my screen. "Grandma's pulse and breathing is thinning. Those who wish to see her for the last time please come now."

My heart pulsed.. At that moment, the only thing that occurred to me was to head over to the hospital.

~ Rewinding back to a few days ago ~

Grandma has got Alzheimer disease for a long time now. Her mind's deteriorating day by day. She's been sent to an old folks' caring home, so that the proper attention and care can be given to her.

However, there was one day where she was very uncomfortable... breathing heavily and uncomfortably..

With general concensus of the children, she was taken in an ambulance back to her house, where she once mentioned that if she were to go.. she wanted to pass away in her room...

However after a while of pondering, for the betterment of her condition, her children decided to admit her to Assunta Hospital to extract her phlegm that was causing her to suffer..

She was admitted to ICU... and her condition has not been better since..

~ --- ~

I drove to the hospital and entered her ward.. There usually was a rule that only 2 persons can visit at a time... But today was different.. There were a number of people crowding around her bed.

I went by her... called her out and touched her head gently...

All the while I stood there, I looked at her fragile frame. There was nothing more pain-staking than to know that she is finally going to part from us eternally.

Occasionally I'll take a glance at the heart monitor situated right beside her..

It was around 40+ when I first arrived... Then it slowly dropped... and dropped...

This was my first time seeing a person slowly slipping away from me in front of my eyes.. She looked like she's just sleeping.. There was no sign of struggle, no sign of pain, no sign of discomfort...

As the time ticks, the heart monitor reached 0... The doctor came by and asked to check on her, and left quickly after..

We all knew she was well gone already, but we still crowded around her.. clinging on to her body, as if denying the painful truth...

Today marks the passing of my dear grandmother, who has shown unwavering kindness and care for her children and grandchildren. She's been a major part of my life... Sometimes staying over with us, buying things for us, even shoving us pockey money...

Dear grandmother, wherever you are... I wish that you have passed on well to a better place.. and do smile upon us as we carry on on this path that you have given us a chance to set foot on.

Thank you for being a part of us. We will remember you always..

Thoughts for the day:True to yourself?

Week by week it passes... Yet I'm still hesitant to face myself..

I take this world too lightly.. Possibly..

Or maybe I'm just too full of myself.. haha..

Time to grow up, kiddo.. The world ain't gonna wait for you..