Weeeee!!!!!!!!! Another month going by, closer to death!!!!!!!!

Hahahah!!!! Ok, here's what happened today. Class in college starts at 9.15, but that driver Alex want me to go to the station at 7am... So woke up at 6, left house at 6.45. THEN!!!!!!!!!! Alex smsed, "wanna go at 8am or not? 7 too early".... OMG!!!!!!!! He's nuts~~~~ Nevermind... Fetched my bro to Kuen Cheng first, then only I went on LRT. Reached at 7.30, he fetched me at that time.

Econs class was quite short, but we were playing with Jhan's Death Note!!!! Hahahah!!!! Econs teacher saw me laughing when I wrote in the note book. She asked, "What's so funny about market equillibrium..." Oops!!! Well, I just said nothing and looked down, and she continued with the class... >.< Close call!!!!

Alex's Birthday!!! My dear cousin played whipped cream on Alex before we exited college!!! Hahahah!!! Wasted time washing up!!! Alex smelt very very bad~~~~ There goes his dyed hair!!! YEAPS!!!! HE DYED HIS HAIR!!!! Then, we set off for sunway pyramid. There, we had lunch at Kim Gary, after getting tickets for a 2 o'clock show -- Epic Movies!!

Everyone ordered food. Jhan was still in drum class. We ate and ate till it was desert time!! Alex, jobless, ordered 7 icy deserts and we waited and waited... After we waited for the two xiu zhe come back, we started on desert. Then, Jhan came. Had the rest of the meal, paid up 138++ den left!!!! Wait.. pics...

Boku wa, soshite... alex-kun


Deserts of the round table..^^


Notice the seat, yeah! that blue and yellow thingy!!! Wait... look down...


The seat suited for the kid!!


Happy birthday!!! Old ones!!!


A group photo...

After that, we went to the cinema. OK!!!! Here's the thing, Epic Movie was a really really really really really really LAME show!!! It was funny, yes, but it was VERY lame... Not really worth watching unless ur those nutty people. Wasn't much of a fun there.

Oh, yes, just to add, I passed my driving test!!! And my license is ready today!!!! YAYS!!! hahahahah... kk, that's all for now la... Hope all of you had a great January!!!

Today was quite a tiring day... Woke up really early in the morning, though it was a saturday, and went for my morning drive. At the end of the whole thing, I was really really tired, and still drove to IKEA because mum was there. Had a walk there and the Curve whereafter we went back...

In the car... I looked at the time, the seconds... slowly ticking... How would it feel to look at the time, knowing that every second that passes by means you're one step closer to the otherworld, one step deeper into life...?

I couldn't understand how is my wheel turning... In quick instances, the past flashed pass my mind, from the time I was still in the hands of my aunt, till my brother was born, then entering school, then knowing friends, learning to do things myself, advancing to teens, growing infatuation, learning my feelings, and also loving... There were many a things I felt wasted... many actions that should have done, and some shouldn't... But the past is gone... and would always remain as memories alone...

That wasn't the problem... though...
I could not see my future... I don't have the courage to approach it, I am scared... But my wheel continues its turning, and my body decaying every second... Would you come to my funeral? She once said that she'd love to have many of her loved ones in her funeral... I, as well as a many of others, would hope so, too. But I really wonder how many would come for mine...? I left bad impressions to many, and none to others...

The sorrow in me is deepened ever more... Is it really... nothing...?

It is a new year, 2007... But it is not just any other new year, this year, it is the advancement from high school to pre-U for my batch of teens... This advancement signifies the changing of a person who is walking amidst a lighted pathway to a person who chooses its path from the infinite branches that bears different results...

My classes in college starts on next monday. Well, I have two of the toilet ppl wif me, and my dear cousin studying at the same course as me there. So, I guess I am quite lucky at that point. Poor Whan is attending class alone in HELP; Leon, Eugene, Devan in MC; CLee going to Aus; Bird's going to UK; Kenneth in the arms; and Jhau who is still stuck wif his international school. I guess most of us are separated everywhere... Where there are meetings, there are bound to be partings... It's still a wonder if we would ever get back again like today...

Today, is the gathering of our group, before the two are flying away... Kenneth was the only absenty, as he is fully occupied wif an unescapable destiny, which would eventually be mine to face... (if I still survive) It was fun today. We got stuck playing some gun game on PS2 while waiting for everyone to gather. It was quite funny, considering the "almighty" Jhau managed to complete stages o.0 Hahaha...

After we were gathered in Jhan's house, we set out to Tesco!!! Haha, got to buy items for the BBQ tonight. We had lunch in KFC, then went up to the supermarket and purchase all the things we thought needed... >.< Imagine a group of 9 teenage boys hanging in a supermarket... zzz... hahaha... After we got everything, we went back to Jhan's house and prepared for the night's BBQ... It took most of the afternoon.
We had time to play at the big black dog, Hugo's, playground at the back of the house. That was fun... Later, we went out and play basketball whilst BBQ-ing the sausages and fishballs. Well, I think Alex and Albert stole most of them while the rest was playing basketball... How greedy... =P There was a short interrogation session, but it'll be wise to skip that part of the story. I was quite upset about it... but I figured it was never something that others understood...

The feast begins!!!!! We began with the lambs and chickens once it was time to eat. (It depended on our stomachs, really...) Then, we sat around and chat. The dinner continued on till 9pm... around 2-3 hours, altogether. I came to know something that I had never clearly known before... I just knew that she was angry, and that was because Leon told me. I guess, that day... my mind was really blocked by the hatred built within... sigh... "I am truly sorry, I never meant to hurt you... I thought that you were clear..."

Thence, one by one left, and we cleaned up the mess created by the bunch of barbarians eating. (Me excluded, I'm entirely civilized =P) I left soon also... That concludes the day of one almost perfect gathering... hehe...

Dreams are never meant to come true. The "coincidence" we had... I really thought that it was there... What are the chances of picking your name among the papers as the third last person to pick from that plastic bag? I still did... A phone that lost its light the whole day, had its light back to normal immediately when your sms arrived, how is that? It certainly didn't happen to the sms my mum sent me... An hour after school ended, when most of the school was gone, and you have no reason to stay back, what are the chances to see you after my meeting? You just popped up in front of me in that big thunderstorm out of nowhere. After you board the train in a hurry, I sent you an sms asking what's the hurry, and at the same time it was sent, your sms saying that i'm slow as a turtle arrived. I was staring blanky at it that time, hardly believing my eyes. There were many others... But in the end, it was still nothing more than a dream, a dream that filled my life for once, a dream that made my entire school year different... I loved you... And that was the very first love I ever had in my heart to someone other than my family...

Clearly saying, I liked every single person I know of... I would go to the extent to love them all... It is a very nice feeling, to love... But no matter how much I loved the rest, I still couldn't have the certain feeling towards them as I have felt for her. But it seems that on the outside... I have made terrible mistakes... I thought that at least one would understand, would know... But tonight... It really is disappointing to know that not even the one I liked most as a friend could understand me... Yes! I do admit that I like a whole lot of people, but there has always been only one whom I loved. Why was it a yes...?

I doubt that any of this would even be read... since it's quite a dead blog anyways... But until now... I like you the most... Maine... for I like the way you are, compared to my ex bestest best fren... And I would really like to keep you as a treasured friend... That's why I asked you...

I'm getting crazy... and my body is rotting... I don't know how long more I can last... but I guess I'll get pass Uni before something serious might happen... It's getting worse, and I don't really know what to hope for. God saved me from birth, and gave me a curse... What's this year's climax...?