It is a new year, 2007... But it is not just any other new year, this year, it is the advancement from high school to pre-U for my batch of teens... This advancement signifies the changing of a person who is walking amidst a lighted pathway to a person who chooses its path from the infinite branches that bears different results...
My classes in college starts on next monday. Well, I have two of the toilet ppl wif me, and my dear cousin studying at the same course as me there. So, I guess I am quite lucky at that point. Poor Whan is attending class alone in HELP; Leon, Eugene, Devan in MC; CLee going to Aus; Bird's going to UK; Kenneth in the arms; and Jhau who is still stuck wif his international school. I guess most of us are separated everywhere... Where there are meetings, there are bound to be partings... It's still a wonder if we would ever get back again like today...
Today, is the gathering of our group, before the two are flying away... Kenneth was the only absenty, as he is fully occupied wif an unescapable destiny, which would eventually be mine to face... (if I still survive) It was fun today. We got stuck playing some gun game on PS2 while waiting for everyone to gather. It was quite funny, considering the "almighty" Jhau managed to complete stages o.0 Hahaha...
After we were gathered in Jhan's house, we set out to Tesco!!! Haha, got to buy items for the BBQ tonight. We had lunch in KFC, then went up to the supermarket and purchase all the things we thought needed... >.< Imagine a group of 9 teenage boys hanging in a supermarket... zzz... hahaha... After we got everything, we went back to Jhan's house and prepared for the night's BBQ... It took most of the afternoon.
We had time to play at the big black dog, Hugo's, playground at the back of the house. That was fun... Later, we went out and play basketball whilst BBQ-ing the sausages and fishballs. Well, I think Alex and Albert stole most of them while the rest was playing basketball... How greedy... =P There was a short interrogation session, but it'll be wise to skip that part of the story. I was quite upset about it... but I figured it was never something that others understood...
The feast begins!!!!! We began with the lambs and chickens once it was time to eat. (It depended on our stomachs, really...) Then, we sat around and chat. The dinner continued on till 9pm... around 2-3 hours, altogether. I came to know something that I had never clearly known before... I just knew that she was angry, and that was because Leon told me. I guess, that day... my mind was really blocked by the hatred built within... sigh... "I am truly sorry, I never meant to hurt you... I thought that you were clear..."
Thence, one by one left, and we cleaned up the mess created by the bunch of barbarians eating. (Me excluded, I'm entirely civilized =P) I left soon also... That concludes the day of one almost perfect gathering... hehe...
Dreams are never meant to come true. The "coincidence" we had... I really thought that it was there... What are the chances of picking your name among the papers as the third last person to pick from that plastic bag? I still did... A phone that lost its light the whole day, had its light back to normal immediately when your sms arrived, how is that? It certainly didn't happen to the sms my mum sent me... An hour after school ended, when most of the school was gone, and you have no reason to stay back, what are the chances to see you after my meeting? You just popped up in front of me in that big thunderstorm out of nowhere. After you board the train in a hurry, I sent you an sms asking what's the hurry, and at the same time it was sent, your sms saying that i'm slow as a turtle arrived. I was staring blanky at it that time, hardly believing my eyes. There were many others... But in the end, it was still nothing more than a dream, a dream that filled my life for once, a dream that made my entire school year different... I loved you... And that was the very first love I ever had in my heart to someone other than my family...
Clearly saying, I liked every single person I know of... I would go to the extent to love them all... It is a very nice feeling, to love... But no matter how much I loved the rest, I still couldn't have the certain feeling towards them as I have felt for her. But it seems that on the outside... I have made terrible mistakes... I thought that at least one would understand, would know... But tonight... It really is disappointing to know that not even the one I liked most as a friend could understand me... Yes! I do admit that I like a whole lot of people, but there has always been only one whom I loved. Why was it a yes...?
I doubt that any of this would even be read... since it's quite a dead blog anyways... But until now... I like you the most... Maine... for I like the way you are, compared to my ex bestest best fren... And I would really like to keep you as a treasured friend... That's why I asked you...
I'm getting crazy... and my body is rotting... I don't know how long more I can last... but I guess I'll get pass Uni before something serious might happen... It's getting worse, and I don't really know what to hope for. God saved me from birth, and gave me a curse... What's this year's climax...?
My classes in college starts on next monday. Well, I have two of the toilet ppl wif me, and my dear cousin studying at the same course as me there. So, I guess I am quite lucky at that point. Poor Whan is attending class alone in HELP; Leon, Eugene, Devan in MC; CLee going to Aus; Bird's going to UK; Kenneth in the arms; and Jhau who is still stuck wif his international school. I guess most of us are separated everywhere... Where there are meetings, there are bound to be partings... It's still a wonder if we would ever get back again like today...
Today, is the gathering of our group, before the two are flying away... Kenneth was the only absenty, as he is fully occupied wif an unescapable destiny, which would eventually be mine to face... (if I still survive) It was fun today. We got stuck playing some gun game on PS2 while waiting for everyone to gather. It was quite funny, considering the "almighty" Jhau managed to complete stages o.0 Hahaha...
After we were gathered in Jhan's house, we set out to Tesco!!! Haha, got to buy items for the BBQ tonight. We had lunch in KFC, then went up to the supermarket and purchase all the things we thought needed... >.< Imagine a group of 9 teenage boys hanging in a supermarket... zzz... hahaha... After we got everything, we went back to Jhan's house and prepared for the night's BBQ... It took most of the afternoon.
We had time to play at the big black dog, Hugo's, playground at the back of the house. That was fun... Later, we went out and play basketball whilst BBQ-ing the sausages and fishballs. Well, I think Alex and Albert stole most of them while the rest was playing basketball... How greedy... =P There was a short interrogation session, but it'll be wise to skip that part of the story. I was quite upset about it... but I figured it was never something that others understood...
The feast begins!!!!! We began with the lambs and chickens once it was time to eat. (It depended on our stomachs, really...) Then, we sat around and chat. The dinner continued on till 9pm... around 2-3 hours, altogether. I came to know something that I had never clearly known before... I just knew that she was angry, and that was because Leon told me. I guess, that day... my mind was really blocked by the hatred built within... sigh... "I am truly sorry, I never meant to hurt you... I thought that you were clear..."
Thence, one by one left, and we cleaned up the mess created by the bunch of barbarians eating. (Me excluded, I'm entirely civilized =P) I left soon also... That concludes the day of one almost perfect gathering... hehe...
Dreams are never meant to come true. The "coincidence" we had... I really thought that it was there... What are the chances of picking your name among the papers as the third last person to pick from that plastic bag? I still did... A phone that lost its light the whole day, had its light back to normal immediately when your sms arrived, how is that? It certainly didn't happen to the sms my mum sent me... An hour after school ended, when most of the school was gone, and you have no reason to stay back, what are the chances to see you after my meeting? You just popped up in front of me in that big thunderstorm out of nowhere. After you board the train in a hurry, I sent you an sms asking what's the hurry, and at the same time it was sent, your sms saying that i'm slow as a turtle arrived. I was staring blanky at it that time, hardly believing my eyes. There were many others... But in the end, it was still nothing more than a dream, a dream that filled my life for once, a dream that made my entire school year different... I loved you... And that was the very first love I ever had in my heart to someone other than my family...
Clearly saying, I liked every single person I know of... I would go to the extent to love them all... It is a very nice feeling, to love... But no matter how much I loved the rest, I still couldn't have the certain feeling towards them as I have felt for her. But it seems that on the outside... I have made terrible mistakes... I thought that at least one would understand, would know... But tonight... It really is disappointing to know that not even the one I liked most as a friend could understand me... Yes! I do admit that I like a whole lot of people, but there has always been only one whom I loved. Why was it a yes...?
I doubt that any of this would even be read... since it's quite a dead blog anyways... But until now... I like you the most... Maine... for I like the way you are, compared to my ex bestest best fren... And I would really like to keep you as a treasured friend... That's why I asked you...
I'm getting crazy... and my body is rotting... I don't know how long more I can last... but I guess I'll get pass Uni before something serious might happen... It's getting worse, and I don't really know what to hope for. God saved me from birth, and gave me a curse... What's this year's climax...?
>> §cripted by ~|Inire|~
1 Comments:
u really have made a few blunders thru out form 5... ur outer core and the image placed on it is entirely opposite of ur innerself.. and u should have shown ur inner self more.. not the plastic covering it..
as for the past.. move on ba.. u're not the only 1 suffering here..to realise that ur date never was meant to be ur date.. haha.. well.. take care la! and seriously.. move on.. no use feeling bad for what you have done.. tml is our official first day of college and start of a whole new chapter..no one is ever perfect at the start.. use the experience gained and start a fresh!! 10 months is a long tiem dude.. use it to the max.. ^^
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