Whatever will be will be. I have no idea what I am anymore. To my friends, I may look nice. To myself, I could only see a devil within. What am I?

I let it out today. But it wasn't what I intend to. Nevertheless, the striking force of the disappointment never left my heart till now. Why should I worry?? I don't quite understand the fact... I thought I could never again touch my heart, but I felt it today again.

Besides, whatever happened was not stopping just there. I discovered I was an ass. How could I always expect something that might not be the same for everyone else? I should hv given a clearer picture but I had to assume that everyone understands. Why am I so idiotic??!@?! I can't possibly assume that everyone knows!!!! Plus!!!! What the hell you think you're doing, INIRE!!!! Get your ass off and start to change!!!! GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!

I hope it'll change soon. I have to... My weakness... I can't be perfect, but at least I want to be the best of me, forever... so what say you, Inire...